I can remember a time in my life when I believed that God didn't like me too much. Although I professed to be a Christian, I often willingly did things that were contrary to His word. The life I lived behind closed doors was contradictory to holiness and righteousness. Even though I often pleaded for God's forgiveness, the weight of my guilt and shame made me feel that God was angry with me for continuously falling short.
After breaking promise after promise to straighten up and fly right, I felt that God had gotten tired me and His love had waxed cold. But that wasn't so; that's just the way I felt...what the enemy made me believe. What I didn't realize back then is even though my actions didn't always line up with my desire to be pleasing to God, He yet extended His grace to me. Even in my sin, His grace abounded the more. (Romans 5:20)
He wasn't mad at me; He didn't cut me off; He didn't throw me away, but He continuously loved me. He knew that underneath all of my mess was the holy, righteous woman He destined me to be before the foundation of the world. Despite all of the sinful, displeasing things I did (Trust me, I can write a book about all the stuff I did.) His love was constant. He loved me deeply and unconditionally, and never held any of my wrongdoing against me. He forgave me, and cast all of my sins into the sea of forgetfulness.
Although I engaged in premarital sex...
Although I was addicted to pornography...
Although I filled myself with alcohol...
Although I harbored unforgiveness in my heart...
Although I wasn't always honest...
Although I had a baby out of wedlock...
Although I shacked up with my boyfriend...
Although I hated those who hurt me...
God was never mad at me, but was always mad about me and madly in love with me. I'm so grateful for that.
The same goes for you. No matter what you've done in the past, or what you're struggling with at this very moment, God is not mad at you. Because He is so rich in love, grace, and mercy, He yet loves you madly...deeply...unconditionally. He loves you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)
Now don't get me wrong, by no means am I insinuating that continuing in anything that is contrary to God's standard of holiness is okay simply because He is gracious towards us. (See Romans 6) As children of God, we are called to be holy and represent Christ in all areas of our lives, and that is what we should strive for each and every day. However, God understands that, as imperfect people, we make mistakes and have struggles.
And in spite of your shortcomings, mistakes, bad choices, or whatever the case may be, God is not mad at you; He is mad about you and madly in love with you. He's not holding any guilt over your head, neither is He holding on to what you did yesterday. His love for you far exceeds that, and His plans are to prosper you, and give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Follow God's example, and forgive yourself. Let go of the guilt and stop being mad at yourself. Ask God to help you love yourself the way He does, madly...deeply...unconditionally.
~May you live in His love.~
It's amazes me what God can do and who He can use when we open our hearts an minds to His perfect Will for our lives. I just thank God today for His unconditional love, grace and mercy!
ReplyDeleteThank you. I needed to read this. I've been a bit down, lately. Thank you.
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