Ever since the pregnancy loss, it has become the million dollar question that almost everyone asks me – Will you try again?
Each time, I never really have an answer. Truthfully, I’ve been torn when it comes to considering actually trying again. There’s a huge part of me that is terrified of the possibility of going through such a traumatic experience again, and if I never give pregnancy another try, I figure I’ll save myself from the risk of suffering that particular heartache and disappointment should the result from the last time repeat itself.
The reality of never having the opportunity to hold my sweet baby in my arms was deeply disappointing for me, and the thought of putting myself in a position to feel that let down again has honestly had me quite fearful. But since I know that the Lord has not given me the spirit of fear, I knew I had to take my anxiety about conceiving straight to Him.
A few nights ago, I pulled out my prayer journal and favorite pen, and poured my heart to The Father. I’ll give you a peek inside that intimate moment and share what I wrote...
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