Thursday, November 10, 2011
Within a matter of seconds after praying for my friend, I noticed the indicator light blinking on my phone. I had a text message. When I opened it, my heart sank. It was a message from my friend saying that she wanted her life to be over, and was struggling with harming herself, and worse, taking her own life. She's been in a vicious fight for a really long time, and sometimes she feels that the pain and torment in her mind is too much to handle. She has a hard time believing that her life will ever be more than what it is right now.
I immediately began to go into warfare for my friend, and did all I could to convince her to hold on. Thankfully, she did not succomb to the demons in her mind, and made it through a very difficult moment. God is a keeper.
There are so many people out there like my friend, who are so overwhelmed by life's problems that they feel they may be better off dead. That's a lie from the enemy. God desires that you live, and abundantly so. (John 10:10)
I recently wrote an article in EEW Magazine about how our problems are not meant to be the death of you, and how we must declare that we will not die, but live. (Psalm 118:17)
But what do you do when the pain is too much? When the demons in your mind are so loud? When the more you pray the worse you feel? When the tears won't stop, and nothing seems to help? When you want to cut yourself to relieve the pain? When you struggle with commiting suicide? When you want to drink the hurt away? When you want to go to sleep and never wake up? When there's so much anger bottled up inside of you that you want to hurt someone else? What do you do?
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